I'm looking back at my old posts

and I think my writing's been getting exponentially worse. This may or may not be due to nearly giving myself a light concussion while trying to learn how to kip up; and also may or may not be due to the fact that this year has probably been more mentally and emotionally taxing than talking to Jonathan for 20 minutes.

Oh, right, i have to learn my bleeding hiragana.

You know, guys, just because I'm learning the language doesn't mean I have to be as enthu and obsessive over it as all of you are. I can't believe that you all try to make me feel inadequate and try to be funny by telling me that I haven't memorized my hiragana as quickly as you have.

It actually only disables my ability to retort because my head is filled with thoughts of how big of a dumbass you are and how much you don't fucking get it.

Humour has to be situational. The best humour you find out there deals with popular culture or recent/famous events, because everybody knows about them. If I walk myself into a joke then shame on me, if the opportunity for a joke about me presents itself then sucks to be me; but you can't suddenly bring up a joke about my indonesian relatives in the middle of math class and expect anybody to find it even mildly amusing.

That's not being funny, that's being a total prick, really, you can't deal a blow any lower or go any shallower than you already are if you have to resort to bringing up random things about somebody else's heritage in a way that's meant to be derogatory and play dumb about it to try to be funny.

On the exact same hand but maybe a different finger, telling me that I'm a loser cause I haven't spent my time mugging a Japanese course that you are masturbating over is possibly one of the fucking stupidest things I've ever heard.

"Hey Justin, I bet I can wank faster than you can."
"Oh, really now. Tell me why the fuck I'd care, please."
"Haha, I bet you wank real slow, what a loser."